Things in life are supposed to make you stronger;

People have always told me that the bad things that happen to you are in your life to make you stronger. You get in a fight with your best friend, boyfriend, or family member. You don't get accepted to the college you wanted. You lose someone you love. From little things to the things that could mean the most to you; they're supposed to make you stronger. I haven't really ever understood this whole concept until now.

When someone would say this to me I'd do my usual; roll my eyes, and think of how stupid it sounds. How could things that are so bad that happen to you, make you stronger? Things that make you feel like you can't go on any longer? Things that make you think there couldn't be anything worse? They make you stronger?

I've had a lot of issues in my life; not as many as other people but, still issues. I've been at those times when I've felt like I couldn't go on any longer, and most of the time I just never tried. It's a very hard thing for me to do. I'm not the type of person to just let things go. It's probably the hardest thing for me to do. That, and being the bigger person.

But, you really need to learn to. I was reading my Devotional last night and when I was done I just sat there in the silence; talking to God. I will admit, I haven't done that in a very long time, and I needed it. I completely broke down. Giving God my everything. Getting a lot of things off my chest. And sitting there, talking, thinking, and praying, I began to think about all of the things that have been going on lately.

God sent his one and only son to die for me. God made me how I am and puts these obstacles in my life. He always has his reasons. And one of them is always to make me stronger. I wish other people would come to that realization if they haven't yet. It may not seem like a very hard concept to grasp for some people, but really, it is. And until last night, I didn't think I would ever understand.

There are a lot of things that I need to let go, and be the bigger person about. A lot of things I need to just forget about, and not let them get in my way. Because even when it seems like everything's going downhill and nothing is going to make it better, God put all of those things in my life to make me stronger. And it's time I start getting that through my head.

Just an FYI;

I'm a very blunt person. So if you don't like boldness, you probably shouldn't read this blog.

It's time something was said;

There are a lot of things that I don't really care for. But, one that I absolutely cannot stand is a two-faced person. There are a lot of two-faced people in this world but, I can't take it when they are someone that I'm close to and that I know well.

Allison, a college student, spoke on Wednesday night at my youth bible study. She did an amazing job, I absolutely loved every minute of it. She talked about how our youth group is at a stand still, and that it has been for months. She said that we should be taking steps forward, RUNNING! We should all be RUNNING forward with God! There are so many people in our youth group that are just standing still, even some of the older students. I am not saying that I didn't need to hear that at all and that I'm doing a fine job as being a part of this youth group. Because that's not true. It was a complete wake up call for me; as it should have been for many of the students in that house. But there were people talking about it with me the next day saying that the youth group really needed to hear that and that it needed to be said. THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY IT FIRST?! WHAT WERE YOU WAITING FOR?!

Justin, our youth pastor, tells us things like this all the time. We know that things need to be done, and we know what to do, we're just waiting for someone else to do it first because we are too afraid. Well, I know that I am absolutely guilty of this but, for someone to come out and say that, when it's a regular person at church so they'd heard Justin say that, it was a complete shock to my ears. I wanted to absolutely scream those two sentences above. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

Look people, even if you think that you are a good christian and fulfill all of the duties of a follower of Jesus Christ, there is always room for more. You can always do things better as long as you try. We need to stop being so conceited and stop standing still. And start taking steps forward RUNNING! WITHOUT BEING AFRAID!