Anyone could tell you, because everyone knows, that I am one of the worst gossipers ever. Wow, did I really just say that? Me? The person who's never wrong and hates admitting things? Wow.
Honestly, I really wish I would try harder to stop. So many things have happened to me over the past year and a half dealing with my gossiping, it's ridiculous. I've lost friends because of it, and an older boyfriend has YELLED at me because of it. Yet, I still seem to find my way back in step with my everyday gossip. I've tried to change so many times, and I'm still trying.
Today I was sitting in class and I turned to the person next to me and told her something I found out earlier. Within two seconds of me telling her it spread like wildfire and she was telling her other friends in the class. Everyone has told me before that that's how gossiping works. And I believed it, or at least I thought I did. But, until today, I never actually fully got that concept into my head. How could I go on and say such horrible things about people behind their backs? And people I don't even know! How horrible am I? I'm awful. And I'm supposed to be a Christian? I say I'm a Christian yet I go around talking about everyone? How messed up is that? I'm so angry, I don't even know how to finish this right now.
